my life's been so up in the air
Did you know that you can need people without realizing that you do? And only when it's threatened, that you find yourself second guessing it, that you're forced to recognize it, you realize that you can't not have it. You can't not have him. You can't not have her. You and him. You and her. Things that can't just be left aside, and at the same time, you're tired of fighting. You're tired of crying. You're tired of being miserable over it, tired of explaining it, and all you have left to say, despite it all, is that you can't do without right now. Not right now.

And maybe there will be a day where it isn't so. Maybe there'll be a day where you can wear a straight face, because it's still wearing something, and keep it solid. Maybe there'll be a day where you don't choke on your words and feel the tears burning in the backs of your eyes. And maybe there won't be.

But I promise I'm okay today. And this is what I want today. This is what I need today.

So why do we fight it?